As I sit in my living room, the front door is open and a
cool breeze is making its way in. I have turned off all other
distractions, so that I can hear the birds outside. Even my dogs are
asleep, everyone is asleep, except for the birds and I.
I woke up this morning in a way that I have done for many
days now. Eye one, then eye two, a stretch, and the thought,
"another cloudy day" hits my mind, and perhaps my tongue, under my
breath. I'm sick of the clouds. I'm sick of the rain. I'm sick of my
stinky attitude about my life and the stupid clouds. I'm tired of not
being inspired.
There I said it. I'm tired of not being
inspired. I have waves of inspiration and grandiose-God moments, but they
are nestled between the “should” and “shouldn'ts” of my days. I want continuity
and consistency. I want to feel healthy and joyous and content for a larger
portion of my days, weeks, and years.
I'm wondering if you can relate or if it's just me. I
feel like I pump myself up, and by the end of the day, and before I turn in to
bed, I am there. Then, I wake up in the morning, and it's all gone. I
have to start all over.
Even as I write this, the Holy Spirit reminds me that God is
my missing link to consistency. He is the only thing that remains the same. He
is the glue that holds together my moments and my days, He connects the past to
the future, yesterday to today. I am living a life mostly made up of my own
efforts and strengths, and the older I get, the harder it gets, ‘cause let’s
face it, getting older is hard work. I am tired, crabby, unsatisfied, and
unfulfilled when left to my own devices.
I cannot live a holy life without a constant walk
with Him. How can I expect anything to stick with interaction of the loving God
who created me in His image?
“May
the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone
else, just as ours does for you. 13 May He strengthen your hearts so that you will be
blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus
comes with all his Holy Ones.” (1 Thess 2: verse 12 and 13)
When
we come to each other after having spent time with Him, we are better for
it. It’s not just about us and our days,
and muddling through them. It’s about coming to Him incomplete, and learning to be more
complete, in Him. Then, when we are together in community, be that a large
group or a small one of just you and another, we can commune with God and each
other on a more intimate, personal level.
Just as I am ready to hit SAVE on this reflection, I am
looking out the window to sunshine on my lawn. If only for a moment, Father has
reminded me that the way things are is not always the way things will be.
Enjoy this day!Have
a most amazing, cloudy, God-filled day.
Cheryl
